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In the past, at school, I was never good at anything—I struggled to learn.
I can manage a bit with computer science, but I don’t really feel like an actual programmer.
When I figured out how to solve the Rubik’s Cube and developed some skills—something I was actually good at—that’s when my identity started to form. So I don’t know what my life would be like without the Rubik’s Cube.
I was also decent at video games. As a teenager, I played a lot of Fallout 3 and New Vegas, as well as the Jak and Daxter and Ratchet and Clank series.
I had a dream: to become a video game programmer, and later an inventor of time machines and teleportation. I can say that even though I passed the entrance test for the Polytechnic University of Turin, in the end I didn’t go. I have to admit that learning new things is still difficult for me.
With that said, when I invented my method, I wasn’t initially looking for fame. But when the Italian community was amazed, I started to desire it.
Things went badly online because of my personal issues, and my life became a mental hell.
Still, I kept solving the Rubik’s Cube, and after competing from 2014 to 2023, I realized that, somehow, I didn’t feel like I belonged in the speedcubing world.
As for puzzles, I only solve the 3x3. Even though I figured out other puzzles without tutorials, they bore me, so I keep the 3x3 as a hobby. In the past, I wanted to achieve a world record in 3x3 to prove that my method works—but I was wrong.
Now I’ve realized that I would simply be happy if someone else independently invented the same method as me, or if other cubers used it.
In a way, my method had become an obsession, especially after experiencing what it felt like to be noticed at my first competition.
People who knew me in the past and saw my behavior online, influenced by my struggles, ended up distancing themselves from me—almost like I was exiled as a friend.
Because of that, potential friendships never developed, and I remained a solitary cuber. I don’t have anyone in real life to share this passion with, and the idea of going to competitions—given the negative reputation I feel I have in Italy—makes me feel lost.
This is the sad part of my story. Still, I’m happy that I achieved something with the Rubik’s Cube. But if things had gone differently for me… would that have been better?
I can say that my career as a speedcuber is probably over. I don’t think I’ll compete anymore, because socially I feel compromised within the Italian community. Competing abroad isn’t really an option either—I’m afraid of traveling, I don’t know how to navigate, and there are also financial concerns.
Right now, I’m making YouTube videos about my method. But in the end, I ask myself: what do I really want?
To be recognized? To have friends? To be part of a community?
What do I truly desire?
I don’t know.
I can manage a bit with computer science, but I don’t really feel like an actual programmer.
When I figured out how to solve the Rubik’s Cube and developed some skills—something I was actually good at—that’s when my identity started to form. So I don’t know what my life would be like without the Rubik’s Cube.
I was also decent at video games. As a teenager, I played a lot of Fallout 3 and New Vegas, as well as the Jak and Daxter and Ratchet and Clank series.
I had a dream: to become a video game programmer, and later an inventor of time machines and teleportation. I can say that even though I passed the entrance test for the Polytechnic University of Turin, in the end I didn’t go. I have to admit that learning new things is still difficult for me.
With that said, when I invented my method, I wasn’t initially looking for fame. But when the Italian community was amazed, I started to desire it.
Things went badly online because of my personal issues, and my life became a mental hell.
Still, I kept solving the Rubik’s Cube, and after competing from 2014 to 2023, I realized that, somehow, I didn’t feel like I belonged in the speedcubing world.
As for puzzles, I only solve the 3x3. Even though I figured out other puzzles without tutorials, they bore me, so I keep the 3x3 as a hobby. In the past, I wanted to achieve a world record in 3x3 to prove that my method works—but I was wrong.
Now I’ve realized that I would simply be happy if someone else independently invented the same method as me, or if other cubers used it.
In a way, my method had become an obsession, especially after experiencing what it felt like to be noticed at my first competition.
People who knew me in the past and saw my behavior online, influenced by my struggles, ended up distancing themselves from me—almost like I was exiled as a friend.
Because of that, potential friendships never developed, and I remained a solitary cuber. I don’t have anyone in real life to share this passion with, and the idea of going to competitions—given the negative reputation I feel I have in Italy—makes me feel lost.
This is the sad part of my story. Still, I’m happy that I achieved something with the Rubik’s Cube. But if things had gone differently for me… would that have been better?
I can say that my career as a speedcuber is probably over. I don’t think I’ll compete anymore, because socially I feel compromised within the Italian community. Competing abroad isn’t really an option either—I’m afraid of traveling, I don’t know how to navigate, and there are also financial concerns.
Right now, I’m making YouTube videos about my method. But in the end, I ask myself: what do I really want?
To be recognized? To have friends? To be part of a community?
What do I truly desire?
I don’t know.